My blog and I, we’ve been spending some time apart.
For a while, I just wasn’t feeling it. I couldn’t get my head in the right place, couldn’t focus or find that inspiration and motivation I was once full of.
I’ve been blogging for 3 1/2 years now, and it that time, this little space of mine has commanded a huge chunk of my brain power. What started out as a hobby soon became my life. I spent every waking minute thinking about two things: My family, and my blog. And honestly, it started to get a bit too much. My enthusiasm slowly turned to apathy, until suddenly I felt completely disinterested.
Regular readers will know that I’ve been suffering from some mental health issues, and I think this has played a major role in the recent demise of my blog. But, I don’t think it’s the only reason things went downhill. I think perhaps I was just trying to do too much. Trying to move too fast. I think a combination of low mood, anxiety, poor concentration and pure blogger burnout were the perfect catalyst for a bit of a blog breakdown.
It was a cause for concern in the beginning. Another thing to add to the list of things that I felt bad about. But more recently, I’ve been looking at the break in a new light. Instead of worrying about what I wasn’t doing and what I should be doing, I decided just to take it easy; and wow, what a difference.
For a couple of weeks, I just forgot about everything. Instead of spending my evenings at the laptop, I spent my evenings in front of the TV binge watching Gilmore Girls on Netflix. And hey, I can confirm, activities like that are good for the soul. For a start, if you haven’t watched Gilmore Girls you absolutely need to, and secondly if you ever feel like things are getting too much just ditch it all and do your own thing. For an evening, a week or a whole year if you need it. It will do you the world of good.
Apologies if you’ve gotten this far in to the post because as I’m reading over I’m realising this is more a random collection of thoughts than a post with any real meaning. I’m kind of trialling a new way of doing things around here, to help combat the issues I spoke about in this post. I’m kind of over the trial separation me and my blog have been having, and I want to get back in to it properly, but that’s not going to happen unless I do things a bit differently. So for the next wee while at least, the place may just become a bit of a stream of consciousness while I work things out!