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Spring Cleaning My Life

Today is the first day of March, and although it may not feel like it, Spring is definitely on the way.

I can’t say that January and February have been great for me. The beginning of 2017 definitely hasn’t been the best start to the year. Don’t get me wrong, nothing bad has happened. I’ve had some good times over the last couple of months: My mam came to visit from England, the kids both celebrated their birthdays and I had my first night out for ages. Coupled with lots of nice evening spent watching movies with the kids and binge watching tv boxsets with my husband in front of the fire, and you’d think things were pretty good. The reality is, I’ve not been in the best place mentally. I’ve been dealing with my anxiety, trying to power on through medication changes, subsequent weight gain and a severe lack of motivation as a result.

The last few days I feel like I’ve turned a corner though. My newest medication seems to be working. I feel less anxious now than I have done in ages; It’s not gone away (and maybe it never will) but I feel like it’s at a manageable level most days, and I’m ready to get back on track.

But things are a bit of a mess. My house is a mess, my mind is a mess, and I need to spring clean. I’ll explain…

My anxiety leaves me feeling all over the place, unable to concentrate. I’ve always been quite unorganised but when my anxiety levels are high, my ability to organise goes completely out of the window. These last few months, not just in 2017 but in 2016 too, I’ve been all over the place. Forgetting to pack things in the kids bags, forgetting to set my alarm, losing things. Total nightmare. I don’t think it’s been helped by the fact that I’ve let the house get a bit untidy. You know, if my house was today and organised, I’d maybe notice the snack bags sitting on the kitchen table before school. But when the table is covered in piles of washing and things I’m working on and other things that are just ‘resting’ there until I can find them a new home, it’s easy to see why I miss that I’ve left the school snacks in amongst it. Then the anxiety jumps in, and I tell myself how useless I am, that I’m an awful parent because I’ve forgotten something, or that I’m ruining my childrens’ lives because I have a messy kitchen table.

So, as it is a new month, and basically a new season, I’m getting ready for a change. I’m going to start decluttering, cleansing the house of unneeded shite. I’ve drawn up check lists of what needs done around the house on a daily, weekly and monthly basis. I’m going to organise my desk so I have somewhere to work that isn’t chaotic. I’m going to clear the bedroom so I have somewhere relaxing to lay my head at night. I wouldn’t say I’m going ‘minimalist’ but I’m definitely simplifying things around the house.

I’m hoping in turn this will help my free some of the clutter in my mind. Of course, organising my house is not going to cure my anxiety, I know that. But it can’t hurt to have a calmer, more relaxing house, can it?

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9 Comments

  • Reply Sarah Cantwell March 1, 2017 at 1:28 pm

    Good luck with your spring clean! You will feel so much better. I only did one kitchen cupboard but it really is liberating. I just need to get around to doing the rest of the house!
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  • Reply Rebecca | AAUBlog March 1, 2017 at 2:19 pm

    don’t put too much pressure on yourself, but having a clear out can be so therapeutic. I’ve seen a thing for lent going around on social media to give away a bag full (any size) off stuff to the ump or to charity each day. Maybe that would be fun to join in with xx
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  • Reply Newcastle Family Life March 1, 2017 at 2:57 pm

    You know I’m always here if you ever need a chat or anything. I have anxiety to and it is rubbish, thankfully I’m starting to learn to live with it now but it has taken a long time. I totally agree with what you have said about the house, my house is still cluttered and not organised from moving and it really stresses me out. Xx
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  • Reply Sonia March 1, 2017 at 8:44 pm

    It definitely helps to have a clear out and get rid of clutter. Less to tidy and less to worry over, leaving that for the important things

  • Reply Janine March 2, 2017 at 12:04 pm

    Me and hubby have taken off two days next week to start the spring cleaning. It’s just not possible with two smallies running around.
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  • Reply Kerry norris March 3, 2017 at 9:46 pm

    I need to do this too. A spring declutter may help clear my mind. I’ve been struggling too lately. Glad your new medication seems to be working x

  • Reply RachelSwirl March 5, 2017 at 11:39 pm

    I think cleaning the house gives you a clean state of mind completely. I cant cope with an untidy space.
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  • Reply Jodie March 7, 2017 at 9:07 pm

    I know it sounds cliche. But I’m pretty sure it’s the weather!
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  • Reply This Mama Life March 11, 2017 at 1:27 am

    Bless you, anxiety is horrible. I find I feel even worse when my house isn’t the way I want it to be, tidy wise, but that’s probably because I’m a bit OCD too!! Glad to hear you’re feeling a bit better x

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