It has been just over a month since I shaved off all of my hair for charity, so I thought I would do a little update on how I’ve been getting on.
It has been strange having no hair, and I’ve found myself going through different stages of acceptance.
My shave day was obviously a real high. I live streamed my shave on Periscope, and I got an amazing amount of support. I ended the stream feeling fantastic, and posed for lots of photos, absolutely beaming from ear to ear. I was so proud of myself, proud of the money I had raised. I think I was still smiling when I went to bed that night.
The following morning I was brought back to earth with a bang. With the excitement over and the makeup washed away, I looked in the mirror and didn’t feel quite as fantastic as I had the night before. I didn’t have much time to reflect on the situation because I had to go to work, and wear a wig for the first time. I’d chosen the wig a while before I shaved my hair, and had decided to mix it up and get a blonde wig. It had seemed like a good idea at the time, but on the day after shaving my hair and feeling like I’d lost my identity a bit, it didn’t feel like such a good idea.
I felt weird, looking at my reflection and seeing a blonde person I barely recognised. I couldn’t help but think it looked so much like a wig, and I was conscious of it all day. It was such a relief to get home that evening and get the wig off. I still felt rubbish though, so I replaced the wig with a hat. The hat stayed on my head for almost week. A week. Instead of feeling proud of my appearance, I hid my head with a hat. I didn’t even have the confidence to bare my head around the house, and only took it off for bed.
When I posted the first pictures of my shaved hair on to social media I got such an overwhelming response from people. So many comments on how fabulous I looked, and that I really carried the look well. Honestly though, once the excitement of the event had worn off, I didn’t feel fabulous or beautiful. I just felt a bit rubbish about it.
I’ve had some pretty whacky hairstyles and colours in my time, and I’ve pulled all of them off with confidence. I really though this would be no different, that I would just embrace the style and rock it, but it didn’t quite work out that way, not straight away at least.
I think it was just a bit of a shock to the system, it was a pretty big change after all. And sometimes, big changes take a bit of getting used to. And that is exactly what I’m doing, getting used to it. It’s short, and it’s going to be short for a while, so it’s time to accept my new look and just go with it.
It has grown about 1cm since I shaved. I have been taking a selfie every day so I can see it growing, and while it doesn’t feel much longer, you can really see the progress in the photos!