When you find yourself googling the phrase ‘how to overcome writers block’, you know you are in trouble.
You may, or may not have noticed that I haven’t been around much recently. I’ve been struggling to write anything for almost a month, and my blog is suffering for it. Yes, I’ve posted a few photography posts here and there, but nothing with a substantial amount of writing. I have spent many an evening staring at the blank space on my blogger screen, wondering what to do with myself.
In June, I attended Britmums Live. I had been dreaming about it for a year, planning it for 6 months. I thought I would arrive home from my trip and feel inspired, ready to take on the blogging world. And for a few days, I did.
I finally felt like I could take myself seriously, and call myself a blogger. I came home, totally buzzing about the future of my blog and my writing. I started scribbling notes in to my notepad, making lists of future posts, gathering my thoughts. I was full of chat with my husband about how beneficial the conference had been, excited to discuss my ideas with him.
It all sounds very promising, doesn’t it? So as you can imagine, I felt a little bit deflated when I sat down at my laptop to write some posts, and my mind went totally blank. I have pages of ideas, but can’t seem to turn those ideas in to posts. I can’t find the words.
As the weeks have gone by (almost 6 of them since Britmums, I can’t believe it’s been that long!) I’ve been finding it harder and harder. Of course, self doubt has been creeping in.. maybe my writing isn’t good enough. I think my biggest issue is fear of putting myself out there, to have complete strangers read what is in my heart, because what if they don’t like it? This has been a big fear for me since I started blogging, but I think going to Britmums has magnified it. I met so many amazing bloggers that I was totally in awe of, and now wonder if I deserve my place among such people? That, I think, is what is holding me back.
I’m stressing myself out a bit. I love blogging, and I don’t want to let my fears hold me back. I know in the past I’ve been told to just take a little break if I’m not feeling it, and usually that works, but it’s different this time. I am feeling it, I don’t want a break. It’s so frustrating having so many ideas but not being able to put them across properly. What’s more frustrating is knowing that it’s my own fear that is stopping me from writing! I want to get back on track so badly…. if I could just get over the barrier that I have created.